When you met me I let you know that I was broken and without glue. Your response was “I don’t care I wanna be with you.” What I should have told you was “You’re a great guy I’m just not ready to open my heart to another.” I have to work on myself before I take my heart off the shelf. To say we’re in love is dangerous and to be with me requires patience. That is not to say that you don’t have what it takes. I’m just saying that I have to pull the brakes, before this leads to another fatal heartbreak. You may hate me or not want to talk to me but if you choose to be a recluse I will still visit you. I wish I could undo the choices I made with the boys before you but whats done is done its burnt out in the sun. If I had a chance to choose between him or you I would choose to be with you. To tell you the truth I needed a guy like you but I needed him a year ago. I’m at the point in my life where I want to live like a wildfire, furious and unstoppable. I hate to admit this but right now I can’t commit . You are my best friend so don’t think that I’m going to let this friendship sink. Great guy just not the right time. I’m sorry if this hurts in any way shape or form. Please do not let your heart be torn. This is hard for me too so let’s struggle together and see how our hearts mend back together, we can even wrap it in leather. Whatever the weather is, it is not my choice to choose to be together, it is God’s. Let’s face it, we care for one another. But that doesn’t mean we are called to be each others forever. When one door closes another one open. Goodbye, I’ll see you on the other side.